EPISOD 1: Upacara kematian
Aku merenung ke luar tingkap, memerhati gelagat 3 orang rakan sekelas yang didenda memakai tag hingga menutupi separuh badan mereka. Ianya diperbuat daripada kotak dan tertulis "SAYA JANJI SAYA AKAN JADI BUDAK BAIK". Linda, Rina dan Arysa bergelak ketawa dengan lantangnya di luar kelas tanpa ada rasa malu atau insaf dengan kesalahan mereka.Cikgu Jamali mendenda mereka agar mereka dijadikan ikhtibar pada pelajar-pelajar yang lain,namun pelajar di kelas itu hanya mencebik dan tidak mempedulikan kata-kata amaran guru mereka.Malah mereka mengejek-ejek cikgu tanpa menghiraukan pandangan menjengkelkan dari guru-guru lain yang melalui koridor ketika itu. Aku hanya berdiam diri dan mataku meliar melihat karenah manusia yang jijik di depan mataku.
Di SMK Keramat ini, terkenal dengan kebanyakkan pelajarnya ada kumpulan tersendiri atau lebih tepat lagi "berpuak". Gila kuasa. Vandalisme. Pengaruh budaya kuning. Puak-puak ini berasa bangga melakukan hal sedemikian. Menyeksa,memukul dan 'sexual harassment' pada sesiapa sahaja yang lemah atau mengganggu kawasan mereka. Terutamanya pada orang yang mencabar mereka. Puak-puak ini saling mengadakan pertemuan untuk 'berperang' dengan tujuan merampas kawasan dan melakukan apa sahaja yang mereka suka pada puak yang kalah. Puak yang kalah seolah-olah seperti 'servant' pada mereka yang menang. Untuk menbuktikan mereka lebih berkuasa dan hebat.
Linda merupakan 'leader' dalam Puak Darah Hitam dan dia adalah anak kepada Datuk Kamri yang merupakan seorang korporat dalam bidang perniagaan. Linda mempunyai minat yang songsang iaitu dia suka pada perempuan. Lesbian. Gelaran yang lebih tepat pada gadis yang bertubuh lampai, berkulit hitam manis dan berambut lurus panjang hingga ke bahu itu. Sasaran 'Linda' adalah budak perempuan kurus tinggi, lembut dan berkulit cerah.
akan bersambung....
#perhatian: cerita ini dan watak-watak di dalamnya hanyalah rekaan semata-mata.
Saturday, 14 January 2017
Friday, 13 January 2017
The Lack Of Interest
So, today I'm gonna tell my story by using English's language. I'm really sorry if my grammar is still broken and whatsoever i don't care blablabla
I have discover this about myself, well its not so pleasant but finally i know what is my problem. The damn thing that always in my ways. Its a "LACK OF INTEREST". How could i know this? I'm just try the birth date or zodiac or blood type things and its so accurate that i cannot really deny the truth of myself. Actually, i take a long time to type this thing on my blog but i procrastinate it because the truth is I'm always lack of interest. Now I'm interested to write because i have that 'interest',but even now the lack of interest is threatened to me as I'm kind of lacking. The ideas comes so much but i never get to jot it down because later i don't care about it.
What will happen when i'm really lacking, the worse thing you know what? I forgot people's name that have been with me for such a long time!! its like an amnesiac~ and I easily forgot what happen yesterday as my mind keep reminding useless thing and make me really forget the present or just a minute ago. That's terrible you know. What people will feel if i'm just forgeting their name but they remember you like a family or even best friends. I'm even forgetting my best friend names and classmates.
Do you know why i don't speak often? Well one of the reasons is,.. let me tell you that if i'm so quiet like a tombstone on a grave, perhaps i already don't remember you even you were chatting to me yesterday with so many enthusiastic thing about life. I FORGET, I FORGOT. I'm rarely remember anything. SO THATS WHY DON'T EXPECT ME TO TALK WITH YOU CHEERFULLY AS I'M ALREADY FORGETTING ABOUT EVERYTHING!
It is indeed the saddest thing to me as i keep losing friends. It just a friend for a day. No longer than that. I'm always lonely, Sometimes i'm crying because its too lonely. I guess they hate someone like me. I can't ever mingle with my classmates or even roomates properly. If there is a happy day, then that day is just a nice lucky day, but it only last for that day. Tomorrow will be too awkward. Hey! can I cure this? It just to bad that someday i can't stand it anymore. I'm afraid with myself that I might do the foolest thing in the world.
I'm not sure where this lacking come from. I keep losing my interest and tends to switch to somethings else and then I will discard it as i don't feel any interest at all.
What i can tell you, this is one the reasons why i'm so anti-social nowadays because i'm afraid of forgetting you and it hurting me a lot as you leave me alone and never talk to me again. So, its better for me to be alone as i am getting used of it day by day. I'm sorry for my weak responses. I'm sorry if i'm hurting yours feeling. but i sincerely minds you as my friends even i forgot your names.
I have discover this about myself, well its not so pleasant but finally i know what is my problem. The damn thing that always in my ways. Its a "LACK OF INTEREST". How could i know this? I'm just try the birth date or zodiac or blood type things and its so accurate that i cannot really deny the truth of myself. Actually, i take a long time to type this thing on my blog but i procrastinate it because the truth is I'm always lack of interest. Now I'm interested to write because i have that 'interest',but even now the lack of interest is threatened to me as I'm kind of lacking. The ideas comes so much but i never get to jot it down because later i don't care about it.
What will happen when i'm really lacking, the worse thing you know what? I forgot people's name that have been with me for such a long time!! its like an amnesiac~ and I easily forgot what happen yesterday as my mind keep reminding useless thing and make me really forget the present or just a minute ago. That's terrible you know. What people will feel if i'm just forgeting their name but they remember you like a family or even best friends. I'm even forgetting my best friend names and classmates.
Do you know why i don't speak often? Well one of the reasons is,.. let me tell you that if i'm so quiet like a tombstone on a grave, perhaps i already don't remember you even you were chatting to me yesterday with so many enthusiastic thing about life. I FORGET, I FORGOT. I'm rarely remember anything. SO THATS WHY DON'T EXPECT ME TO TALK WITH YOU CHEERFULLY AS I'M ALREADY FORGETTING ABOUT EVERYTHING!
It is indeed the saddest thing to me as i keep losing friends. It just a friend for a day. No longer than that. I'm always lonely, Sometimes i'm crying because its too lonely. I guess they hate someone like me. I can't ever mingle with my classmates or even roomates properly. If there is a happy day, then that day is just a nice lucky day, but it only last for that day. Tomorrow will be too awkward. Hey! can I cure this? It just to bad that someday i can't stand it anymore. I'm afraid with myself that I might do the foolest thing in the world.
I'm not sure where this lacking come from. I keep losing my interest and tends to switch to somethings else and then I will discard it as i don't feel any interest at all.
What i can tell you, this is one the reasons why i'm so anti-social nowadays because i'm afraid of forgetting you and it hurting me a lot as you leave me alone and never talk to me again. So, its better for me to be alone as i am getting used of it day by day. I'm sorry for my weak responses. I'm sorry if i'm hurting yours feeling. but i sincerely minds you as my friends even i forgot your names.
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